Hello hellooooo

Quick post today as I don't have long and have lots to do.

News and Goods;

I'm listening to Bob Marley

I have decided to allow myself to buy ONE 'new' record a month

I went for a run and ran the whole 3 miles

I havn't eaten bread or sugar since Saturday


I'm thinking that by not eating bread and sugar I actually begin to feel better....(not so hopeless)

I also had a thought on my run today.  Well, I had a few, the first was that I get to just enjoy enjoy enjoy the feeling of running, who cares how far or how fast I go, (3 miles in 31 minutes....because I do still care!)....but in truth I run because I want to run not because I should. If I want to walk, that's fine, if I want to skip, that's fine too, (not ever gonna do that!). I think i go through my life not enjoying anything, just getting on with it and doing it.  I'm going to attempt to change that!

My other thought was, (that actually made me cry a little bit whilst running), there is so much oppression AGAINST me taking care of myself....the society that we live in perpetuates the oppression of poverty.  It needs it to survive.  I don't know if my people are targeted for destruction but I do think that having Irish/welsh/raised poor/working class heritage I'm pretty much not 'meant' to care for myself in a thoughtful way. It's not part of the bigger plan from those owners of the everything! I'm not really 'meant' to think well about what goes into my body, or think well about exercising or money.

Well, I've got news for you.............I never was one to do what I was 'meant' to do.............

Ok I'm going off to see how dd is feeling as she had a rough night and then get ready for our busy busy day